how do i get out of here, back to where i belong

sometimes you just can't sleep. i seem to be having one of those nights. one of those weeks actually, where i just can't seem to be able to sleep. no matter how tired i am, it's just not going to happen.

i had a good half hour phone conversation with jin (i'm gunna use real names now, cause it's easier to remember and it doesn't really matter) about half an hour ago, trying to get myself to sleep better, but somehow, for some reason, i can't sleep! i think i've made him worried though, because i told him there was something i wanted to talk about with him. but don't take this the wrong way! it's nothing bad! just i've been wondering some stuff. i seem to have worried him though, because he sounded so sad on the phone :( he's worried that i'm worried, but now i'm worried that he's worried! people shouldn't worry so much. especially about other people's problems! they just gotta learn to live life, which i'm trying to do every day!

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6nHHgvtC7A

well it's the only life i know, and boy how we have grown

i seriously love this. i want to live by this now. and i also kind want some ice cream...

lots of love 

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vskp-IoZOTw

all of life is in one drop of the ocean, waiting to go home

you never realize how much you actually miss people until you all get together again. i love my friends :) oh and also we're really weird.. and kind of awkward looking at times... and people probably question our sanity. BUT I THINK WE'RE AWESOME! :)

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P9vE7EO0r30

down, high, low, the world, my eyes are closed

study, study, study, study, STUDY!.... that's what i should be doing... but i'm not.
exams, why must you exist! :( no motivation to study for you...

I MISS SUMMER SO MUCH. the weather here is rain and wind :'( i look at old pictures and think, WHOA, i used to be tan! now it's just white. blah.

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKb3zwSa2sU

when you find out you can live without it and go along without thinking about it

i look back on old posts and think holy shit. i used to party a lot. i haven't been to a party in so long! and i really do not mind at all. i like this kind of relaxing life much better. basketball and hanging out with close friends, that's all i need :)

i think what i needed to realize my life isn't that boring after all was the partying. because i really don't want to go back to being that kind of person again. i much prefer my weekends now. yay :D

oh and also i'm beginning to think things do happen for a reason. you just have to let life run it's course, and be confident that the decisions you make will work out positively somehow!

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ogQ0uge06o

hey, hey, something's different in my world today

good day. lessons learned today:

1) never make a bet with your boyfriend on the cinnamon challenge. he will be able to swallow an entire tablespoon of cinnamon, while you are left crying and coughing cinnamon all over your kitchen.

2) talk as much as you can in bio about hawaii when you have a sub. it will make you even more excited to go. only 55 more days! :D

3) while reffing a grade 8 tournament, try not to make awkward faces. people may be taking pictures... and those pictures may just end up on facebook.

4) once again, never make a bet with your boyfriend. never make a bet with any boy for that matter. they will go to any lengths they can to win. any.

it's okay.... we're all just really really awkward people.

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3mKG1W6DEU

our dreams, and they are made out of real things

yayayayayayyayyaaaaay! basketball is going so good :D everything just feels so right! yuuuuuus. like we actually have so much potential this year! and this is just our development year. next year will be amazing!

 

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u57d4_b_YgI

it always seemed like such a dream to me, and always seemed like it was so far from reality

successful weekend of basketball in vancouver. although there was a lot of team drama, we got everything figured out and ended up having a ton of fun :D and i'm playing really good again! yuuuuus! :)

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1-Ktak9HPg&feature=g-vrec&context=G2bbd171RVAAAAAAAAAQ

but if i give up that's life, i'll just enjoy it while i can

such a busy week!

my school hosts this huge basketball tournament called superball, with both girls and guys teams. so the teams together were all hyped for it and such! it was quite fun :) but not necessarily my games... because our team's one of the better teams on the island.. so there wasn't exactly much competition. and we ended up easily getting first and second because a team dropped out last minute so we had to play on both sides of the pool. so yeah, not much fun there. but the guys team was a whole different story!

so they had to play this school called d.w. poppy, and they were the dirtiest team ever! like one time one of our players fell on top of one of theirs, so then their player just grabbed onto ours legs and wouldn't let him up! like the ref didn't even call it! so dumbbbb:( and then one purposely tried to gouge one of our players eyes out and he like ended up with this huge gash underneath his eye, and there were so many other things but too hard to explain them all. anyways our boys ended up winning in TRIPPLE over time by 2 points. so stressful! but such a good game.

oh and jin asked me to prom. just hope it's not awkward... since like i'm grade 11... but yaaa... YAY! :D

ya so my team didn't have an awesome team picture :( but the guys team looked stoked enough that i had to use theirs. like they were just so happy! so proud of ma boyz :') hahhhaha

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9HV7TxL4emo

and i'm up here holding on to all those chandeliers of hope

i enjoy relaxing days. days like today, where i can just sit around, drink my hot chocolate and listen to songs like this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWxrEKjDcFE. it makes me really appreciate the little things so much more. i appreciate the fact as i type this, i can look outside my living room window and see the ocean. although it might be grey and rainy today, it's still beautiful like always :) i appreciate the fact that i'm in my pjs all comfy and cozy, with the heat cranked up nice and warm! i just appreciate days like today, where i can sit back and just relax! :)

lots of love :)

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l61doajc19g