move like a jellyfish, rhythm don't mean nothing, you go with the flow ya don't stop

so i had a bio test today, and it was on like jellyfish, sea anemones, corals and that kind of stuff. and i realized, the ocean is actually the most beautiful place. like especially when you go to hawaii, or somewhere else tropical and snorkel in the coral reefs! last year on a spring break trip in maui i stumbled upon the biggest sea turtle i've ever seen! it was the size of me at least and i'm 5'11 ! i swam above it for a while, just watching it. i was completely fascinated by every single move it made. and in the coral it was just so gorgeous! especially with the blue water. eventually i had to swim back in because it was moving too far out, but still i always remember swimming with that turtle.

it kind of made me want to consider marine biology as a career. of course not where i live though, because on the west coast of canada the thing they study the most is salmon. but somewhere tropical, where i could watch all the colourful creatures, and go scuba diving in tropical waters! sound like a pretty great life to me.

STOKED FOR FIRST BASKETBALL GAME/TOURNAMENT OF THE SEASON STARTING TOMORROW! WOOOOOOOO! 

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4F46w1M5A1E

it's always better when we're together

boyfriends annoy me. so much. i feel like ever since jess and shannon started dating their boyfriends they've been spending less and less of time with me, and more time with their boyfriends. to the point of now, where the only time i really hang out with them is at school.

what bothers me the most about it is they say 'montana you've changed'. i've changed? really, i've changed? no, you just started hanging out with your boyfriends all the time, and i've been finding other ways to preoccupy myself, and other friends to spend time with. you're the ones that have changed. you think you're in 'love'. wake up. you're barley sixteen years old, live your life and go out and do things before you say you 'love' somebody. because a month after dating somebody isn't a good time to decide you 'love' them. 

give it time, and have freedom with it. don't take it too seriously. both jessie and shannon think they're going to marry their boyfriends some day eventually. although they haven't said it, they've definitely implied it multiple times. they're already planning grad trips with them. that's not for another year and a half! if either of their boyfriends were to break up with them, i don't know what they'd do. it would be like a death. they've made it so that their worlds revolve around their boyfriends, and have excluded everyone else. totally disregarded their friends. 

i don't think i can deal with them much longer. and to top if off, when we do hang out they always 

1) ask to bring their boyfriends along, then get mad if i say no 

2) text their boyfriends the entire time we hang out not paying any attention to their other friends

when they're with their boyfriends they don't text ANYONE. they make it a point not to. yet when they're with me they constantly text them. 

and i also feel as if they always look down on me because i don't have a boyfriend, i just have flings. they don't understand that yes, it is possible to be single and still be happy. although you may have fun with your boyfriend, i can have fun too. plus i don't have limits.

i think these girls need a serious reality check. and as bad as it sounds, the only way they're really going to get one is if their boyfriends dump them... which i kind of wish they would. 

oh and side note here, T has a boyfriend, and she's amazing with being able to balance everything. she hangs out with him, but still she always makes sure she has time for her friends, and she stays grounded. i really admire her for that. but JM takes it so far to say she's a bad girlfriend. just because she can balance her boyfriend and her friends makes her a bad friend? no jessie, you're just a terrible friend and need to get your big head out of your ass. 

okay done my rant now :)

lots of love 

M 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfoqELZWcp8&feature=feedrec_grec_index

it's hard to believe all these pictures were only from a couple years ago... 

know all the things that make you who you are

why is everything so confusing? i feel like i'm never going to be able to find out what i really want. and i feel as if i go for what i think i want, i realize later it's not what i really wanted. and i ended up messing things up, or ruining things with other people along the way. i feel as if until i find out what i truly want, i'm just going to dig myself into a deeper and deeper hole, making it harder for me to climb out of when i finally realize what i want. WHY IS LIFE SO CONFUSING!?

lots of love

M
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxZTq4zsP5s

tidal waves couldn't save the world from californiacation

lately i've been realizing as we've grown, how much closer my sister and i have become. we spend so much time together, and we tell each other everything. even though we fight... a lot, i'll always love her :) even though we're huge lgs together...
i really don't think there's another person in the world that's as similar to me though. she's almost a twin!

lots of love

M :)

stooooked for tonight! dustin's having a party and then sleepover at julie's after. best of both worlds yay! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlUKcNNmywk&ob=av2e

and so lying underneath those stormy skies, she'd say oh i know the sun must set to rise

you know one of those days where you're just ridiculously happy and laugh at everything? yep, i'm having one of those days :) in such a good mood!

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1G4isv_Fylg&ob=av2e

now i don't know where i'm going, but i know where i've been

i won a starbucks card this morning. one of my extra credit classes is leadership and today they wanted to do something fun for us to make up for all the before school classes. so they organized a scavenger hunt around the school, funnest thing ever. there was a lot of mad running, and my group won by like 2 minutes. yeaaaa. time to hit up starbucks between classes tomorrow.

oh and other highlight of my day, my assistant coach said i was his favorite girl at practice tonight. yay :) haha even if it means nothing, little compliments always make you feel good!

lots of love

M

something about starbucks in the city makes me smile

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q77oJSOSiCs

sexual innuendos, playing these games like nintendo

sometimes i feel as if people take me too seriously. i just want to have fun.

some guy asked me for a tit pic so i sent him this

i mean jeeze people, do you actually think i'm that indecent and that dumb to send you pictures of my boobs. 

then KK was texting me and it got a little too sexual for my liking, so when he asked me what i thought could make his bed experience any better i said ....kittens? needless to say he didn't text back. i think he got the message, but i think he also took me too seriously. i'm only joking around!!

i will never understand guys and their needs to receive sexual images and texts over the phone . in person, it's probably a lot better . aim for that next time? 

lots of love

M