so just relax, lay back and be easy

so let's seeee. second day of the soccer tournament today. it was really fun actually :) but i can't help but have this feeling inside, it's just sad. and i definitely think it has to do with 'that guy'. just this feeling in my stomach, like somethings wrong. i didn't know it was possible to feel so strongly about a person, but not be able to have them.

but enough of that depressing complicated shit. i had fun today :) soccer and sunshine, life's good. out team even won the most sportsmanlike trophy. awee yeahhh. and afterwards we headed to the lake for a swim and pizza with the team. it was nice, but really it's just so hard to like be around 'that guy' and know i can't do anything. i hate when people talk about stuff like that. so i'm just going to try and avoid it from now on.
so anyways afterwards we just all kind of chilled together. and in the end it was me, julie, 'that guy' and marco.

so tomorrow kaynon is having a party. 'that guy' was invited... i don't know if he'll end up coming though. i guess we'll see.

lot's of love, especially to the ones that need it

M

so let me fill ya in on who everyone is. the top left is JM and beside her is J, then S then me :) 

and on the bottom.. well i can't give away who 'that guy' is... so figure it out for yourself  and one guy 
is missing from the picture.. but totally not saying who either.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfIBy2I13CQ&feature=related
i think i'm in love with this song. that's all i can say.

heaven's not so far if i can see you in my dreams

so socccccer tournament today! wooooo! i actually had tons of fun. maybe cause 'that guy' was on my team... but whatevs either way it would've been tons of fun.
so in between games we went to the river like a team, so much fun :) today was just like so chillll. i mean even our team is chill, we're hot pink and we ripped our jerseys so they're like sleeveless and we all like rock the bandannas. just like daaaaymmmmn we look sick. and we had this super chill guy who reffed two of our games, he just reffed with a beer in his hand. so funnny. we're just champs. all of us.
stoked to see what tomorrow has in store for usss!

so tonight i went to wendy's with some people to grab dinner and when we were walking home who do we see but this guy that got mad cause i didn't invite him to my party (oops! my bad) and his friend who has like the best hair everrr. and then who else do we run into but my ex and his little stoner friend. kay like seriously.. do i just have a thing for guys that smoke weed? hope notttt but so far that seems to be the case. but just to clear things up a little bit, drugs are bad. don't do them. okaaay now i feel like a better person.

i love summmmer :)
lots of love xoxooxoxoxooxoxo

M

totally where we were swimming today. except we found like this super nice 

secluded spot that was so deep, and had like rocks to jump off of. perfect :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nmmrqU_gfyo
title of my blog today is totally chelsea by the dirty heads.
looooove.

if love is a drug i just wanna try it

sooo parents come home today. i'm just glad that i'll finally get to sleep in my own bed again... well i mean i did that night i had the party... i mean what, that never happened.
so other then that i've been staying at my auntie's house.. well sleeping there, i've spent most of the days with friends.

well we never hung out later.. but whatevs i see him tomorrow and he's playing on my soccer team so he has no way of avoiding me, so therreee. even thought i kind of realized he probs took advantage of my state of mind that night... like when i'm drunk, i don't really act that drunk.. but like i mean he kept giving me drinks and stuff... like what was he trying to do there? oh well at least i don't have to worry about him since he's going back to his preppy little private school in like a week... but still... i know this sounds stupid but at the same time i'm totally sad about it. like finally we hooked up and then it's like oh bye... like no chance of anything else happening anymore.. like i just liked him so much... and like we've had this thing going on back and forth since grade 9! like seriously grade 9! and it was still there even when he got his scholarship to that private school of his and left all his friends behind.


lots of love

M

l o v e is a four letter word

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0eILQXmIoKU&ob=av2n
'that guy' sang this when i was with him.. i know i was drunk 

and he was like drunk and super stoned but it reminds me of the 

night :) and it also makes me wonder how he found out about 

shwayze...

we've been running for a while why don't cha lay down i'll make ya smile

so i'm so sorry but my internet was down for the past couple of days, and since then so much has happend!

i'm going to skip the normal parts of my routine life because well that would just be too much to explain so here we go...

okay my party! omg like best night ever. well for me. there were like just enough people so it could be controlled but fun. and let's just say i got a little... well tipsy... and guess who showed up! 'that guy' ;) so obviously we hooked up... but i just feel too weird giving too many details so i'll leave it like that and let your little imagination fill in the blanks... but he toats spent the night! woooo! 

so jessie didn't come to my party cause she's super against drinking and now she's like pissed at me! like whoa she's just so uptight she needs to sit back and just chill for a little bit. and i was so surprised even shannon drank!cause her boyfriend kaynon drinks but i mean i've never seen her drink before so i was like awwe yeah she's on our side now. sometimes ya just gotta have a little bit of fun!

so i'm just really hoping that the neighbors don't say anything to my parents when they get back.. cause i mean there were like drunk kids and guys blazing on my deck, but i'm sure i could come up with a completely legit excuse for it... i hope
oh and also it THANK GOD it rained later that night.. or maybe it was early that morning? but yeah defs saved me from having to clean up this guys puke.. phewf 

so that's pretty much all i have to tell for now

lots of love 

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnuEOYK1Kps&ob=av2n
this song makes me smile every time i listen to it. that would be why it 
became the title today.

i swim but i wish i never learned

well for once today didn't start out with tanning!

i had a dentist appointment in the morning, usually i don't complain to much about the dentist but upon the visit today i realized i hate it. but the one thing that got me through it was after the appointment, since my dentist's office is downtown i got to go shopping! so usual i'm not a fan of second hand shopping, but since i've been a little low on the income side (i can't find a job anywhere!) i decided it would probs be a good idea. and today i also realized thrift store shopping isn't bad at all! i even scored a pair of moccasins i love. (i'd like to call my style something within the lines of beachy/hippy/boho so they work with it)

so today i also found out julie went with taelar to vancouver to go to the pne.. normally this wouldn't bother me but taelar invited me to go with her first, but when she found out julie wasn't working she went with her instead. can you say mean!? but whatever, i'm over it. now i just have to deal with  julie and taelar trying to take total control of my party. i was thinking of doing more like a backyard bbq get together summer sort of thing with like maybe 15 people but they want this huge crazy house party. this could turn out badly. plus the expect me to pay for everything with my parents money! yeah right. they can use their own.

so tonight i went on a walk with jessie around 9 because it was so nice out. every year our town has a fair sort of thing so we walked up there to check out the scene. it seemed busier then ever. but i probably won't have time to go this year between visiting family tomorrow and the party that may or may not happen sunday.

i guess we'll have to see how everything goes
lots of love

M

moccasins! please ignore the fact my ankles look extremely

ugly in this picture... i blame bad light and just a bad angle in 

general. you can't even see my amazing tan! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmadSGJCzo8&ob=av2e

this could quite possibly be my favorite song. swim, but i wish i never 

learned. favorite line.

summertime, and the living is easy

well i have to say tonight turned out a little different then i thought.

i'm signed up for like a guys and girls mixed 5-aside soccer tournament so our team (me, julie, taelar, jessie, eric 'that guy', kaynon and marco) was going to get together for a practice tonight. well it ended up only julie, taelar, jessie me and eric showed. go figure. the only one with a good excuse was kaynon since he's camping on quadra. so anyways we didn't really get much soccer playing done... and ended up getting julie's ex-boyfriend from like way back in grade seven to play with us. (hey he's really good at soccer! and pretty cool, even if he is a bit of a stoner...) 

so anyways somehow it came up that since my parents are going to san fransisco i should have a party at my house. the idea kind of makes me really excited, especially since 'that guy' would definitely come... i mean he is quite the party type. the only thing is i don't want it to get too out of control, like cops coming and such... so over the next few days julie, taelar and i are really going to have to plan this out.

well i guess of what's left of my night tonight i'm going to cuddle up with my cat and watch some fresh prince of bel-air. lame, i know i know. 

lots of love 

M

why do sports make guys a million times more attractive? 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxGh6VGxuw0&feature=related

well i mean it's true. summertime, and the living is easy. that's pretty much how

i'm feeling right now. laid back and chillll. that would be why it's the title of 

today's post

lazy days

so i know it's only like just after 5, but i figure who cares how many posts i have in a day? so i guess i'll just give you the recap of my morning/afternoon (not that it's incredibly interesting or anything of that value).

so let's see, what did i do today. well it was pretty similar to yesterday actually. in the sense that i got up, tanned on my deck... waited for somebody to text me what was in store for today. i ended up going to the grocery store with my mom around lunch time since she's going to san francisco, without taking me! yeah i mean not like i wanted to go to california again any time soon...

so once i got home from the grocery store i walked up to the lake with julie and taelar. taelar found this awesome private spot a little while ago with like a rope swing. i love it so much since the main beach is so overcrowded. so after a couple of times going off the rope swing into the water i ended up with rope burn... no other place then between my legs. ouch! so taelar, julie and i decided we needed to get some serious sun to work on our tans (hey don't judge, i take pride in being a sun tanned canadian). there are a bunch of private docks along the lake so we just said what the hell and swam to the closest one. the guy that lived at the house where the dock was even came outside, but just looked at us and walked back in. i figure hey if there's three young, fit girls in bikinis laying on your private dock you should be honored. 

so anyways eventually we left the lake, and here i am now at home. actually thinking about it i should probably start getting ready for tonight... gunna see 'that guy' ;) 

lots of love 

M

the rope swing. although this picture is from when T and i were there with 

'that guy' two days ago i think it was?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TZb8s1tKGE

if it ain't your parents it's the damn police. lazy days in los

angeles, it just works. 

bang bang baby shot me in the heart

i'm sorry but i just can't help thinking Shwayze is adorable. 

i'm not completely sure what it is about him that makes him so appealing. 

maybe that's what it is? 

he's so beautiful on film, but i just can't seem to find a picture 

that really just shows off Joesph Gordon-Levitt. it's all in the 

eyes though, i love squinty eyes.

of course i had to put Demarcus Cousins because well 

i mean he's like my biggest celebrity crush. even though all 

my friends make fun of me for it! it's the crooked smile that 

gets me though. 

okay, okay. i admit to finding cody gomes 

by watching soul surfer, but once again, squinty

eyes got me... plus he kind of reminds me of 'that guy'.

same hair, eyes.. heck they could maybe be twins

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sDflY5UfRo&ob=av2e
shwayzeeeee. well i mean i had to make the title of this post something 
that had to do with one of these guys.

in the beginning

so i pretty much just decided to start a blog to keep track of my painfully normal life so i can just get everything out. so here it goes, the beginning of my incredibly average, nothing out of the ordinary days.

can i even remember what i did today? it definitely wasn't much. i woke up extremely happy because last night i had a dream of my biggest nba crush ever Demarcus Cousins (lame? yes. do i care? no). but get your head out of the gutter, it wasn't some crazy erotic fantasy. just a simple meeting, but it did make me realize how much i love to dream. so i did the usual morning activities, breakfast and such. then i threw on my bathing suit and tanned on my sun deck waiting for somebody to text me with the plans for today. so then before long J (my very best friend in the entire world) texts me to see if I want to go to the lake later that day. i'm not sure how but we never actually ended up going because she had to work a 3-10 shift. so this leaves me pretty much tanning on my deck all day. (hey i warned you my life can be boring). but i really improved my tan, so i guess this is what i got out of my day. exciting? no. beneficial? well... yes for my tan! 

can tomorrow PLEASE be more exciting! 

lots of love, 

M

so in case you don't know. this is Demarcus Cousins. also, i have a strange taste in guys. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8FV4JWDg18

what better title to start my blog then with this song.