cause i try to love you, try to hold on to, the feeling that makes me fall for you

yeah so... got to meet chris andersen at the denver/portland game. i'd say that's pretty solid! kind of stoked cause last nba game i went to i got to meet kobe, and he gave me his game shoes signed :) wasn't expecting a chance to get to meet birdman, but hey, i'll take it! :) :)

birdmaaaan! defend the nest 

last year in portland when we met kobe 

kobe's shoesss :) still on display in my bedroom! 

lots of love 

M 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6RAr7k2MDo&ob=av2e

cause she ain't running, she ain't hiding

PORTLAND! :) after a two hour ferry ride, ridiculous traffic, and a little over 5 hours of driving i'm finally in portland! so stoked, because part of my christmas present was tickets to a trailblazers/nuggets nba game tomorrow night! :) :) :) yayayayayayay!

although i know this sounds very sad/desperate/crazy, i really am gunna miss jin :( like it hasn't even been that long and i'm already like nooooooo! i swore i was never going to turn into one of those girls who's just all about her boyfriend, so i won't! gotta just totally forget about it. 

OH! and also the hotel i'm staying in, the guy working in the valet told us the sacramento kings stayed here last night. THAT MEANS MY FUTURE HUSBAND DEMARCUS COUSINS WAS HERE LAST NIGHT! :O and i missed him! damn. 

lots of love 

M 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_fYw7u6VcY

i've been at the top for a while and i ain't jump yet

oh christmas. a time for laughing with your family, getting fat, and making fun of drunk relatives. it really is the most wonderful time of the year. it really didn't feel like christmas yesterday morning, but after two ridiculously large dinners, lot's of fun time with the family, christmas carols on every radio station and a few presents here and there, it finally feels like christmas to me :) i mean it's kinda over now.. but i'm left with a sort of warm, happy feeling? like i've fulfilled my holiday cheer for another year!

i'm really happy because i'm NOT going to any boxing day sales tomorrow! avoiding the huge rush at the malls! busy shopping just isn't for me! i'm not good with huge crowds and waiting in seemingly endless lineups to purchase something 75% off that you wouldn't have even thought of buying if it wasn't so damn cheap! instead i'm gunna be lazy and lay around the house all day in my pjs :) and i think that jin kid may be coming over? sounds like a good enough day to me! maybe watch the los angeles/sacramento game, it'll be my kinda day! :)

lots of love

M

yay for an excuse to dress uuup :) 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ti3CKuU3FRs

what's better? baby i don't ask

it's really weird saying i have a boyfriend again... but yeah :)

oh and i babysat the cutest kid ever tonight! his name's jackson, and he's 4, oh and he has a ridiculous amount of energy. but it's all good, cause his momma pays me a lot! the only kind somewhat annoying thing though is i have to spend new years babysitting. an but it's just not gunna happen. it's okay though.

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=obLDzkYdKds

hey my baby well ain't that nice, turn a lifestyle into a paradise

so i've been hanging out a little with jin lately. i kinda enjoy this :D hehehehhe :) :)

oh and he's teaching me guitar. cause he's like amazing at it. i think that kind of makes him like 100000000X hotter. just saying.

lots of love

M

i got what ya need

THANK GOD FOR CHRISTMAS BREAK! sewwwwwww stoked. oh and did i mention jin offered to teach me how to play guitar? awww yeahhhh ;) and i got practice tomorrow so i should get to see him a good amount of time in the gym. stoked stoked stoked stoked stoked!

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0R1KKCNcQb4

tired of being what you want me to be, feeling so faithless

so um um um um it's looking like there could be potential for something with jin :) i am kind of really stoked about it! :) like we just talk so much lately! and like both of our basketball teams were on the mainland of a tournament this weekend (girls in chilliwack and boys in abbotsford) so after our game since we won we had so much time to kill we went to see the boys game. and like pg got a technical in the first quarter, so his coach wouldn't let him play the rest of the game... but he was SO HOT when he was playing... like omg. just wow. and it also makes me stoked that he texts me all the time, happy timeeees! :) 

so yeah... our basketball tournament we just played so well! like we're kind of like the underdog team this year, because this is the first year our schools actually had a really good senior team! so i'm pretty excited to see where we go. i mean we beat a provincial ranked team by 20 points! we aren't even ranked! we ended up with second in the tournament though.. cause in the finals we played the number one team in BC. we gave them a good run though, they kept their starters on the whole time! considering this year is kind of more of a development year, next year our teams going to be... well... amazing. 

oh and i'm stoked cause i got player of the game, and i just had a really good weekend for playing. lot's of points! :) and tons of playing time! i just was in such a good focus the whole time! 

OH! and we also had an lg picture contest with the senior boys team. yeah... i think we won.. even though they deny it! 

lots of love

M 

 

LGs 4 LYFE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3METMAHEnvk

nice to know ya, i'm not below ya

i don't even know how some things happen. so i thought this was going be be a pretty good week, considering things were going so well and all. now i'm not saying it's been bad... but it definitely hasn't been that great at all...

so last week on thursday i was just having a really, REALLY off day i guess? because i wrote two tests that day, chem and bio, and somehow i got 52% on the chem test and 57% on the bio test.... HOW DOES THAT EVEN HAPPEN? I'VE NEVER GOTTEN WORSE THEN A B BEFORE! WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME! and like for the most part i knew the concepts and everything. i even had high A's in both of those classes?! what in the world happened that screwed me over so much!? this is ridiculous, and it makes me feel like an idiot. I'M A STRAIGHT A STUDENT, WHAT IS GOING ON HERE!

i really think it's because i have a stress overload. i honestly have had so much going on lately, and absolutely no time at all to relieve it. i haven't had a free weekend, or have been able to sleep in since october. THIS ISN'T RIGHT! thank LORD that christmas break is coming up, but oh just kidding, i don't get a christmas break either cause i'm playing basketball the whole time..... i don't think it is possible for me to function normally anymore... IT MAKES ME WANNA PUNCH SOMETHING!

oh and to top it off i have TWO test tomorrow since i miss friday for a basketball tournament. HOW FUN DOES IT GET. fml. and one of them is in socials and i have to memorize this HUGE flow chart of like 30 different things... yeah i just got the flow chart today. thanks for the heads up.

lots of..................................love

M

i bet the girl in this picture isn't FRIGGEN STRESSED OUT
OF HER LIFE! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dPStEC2Sw-Q

we could, drift all night until the new sunrise

you know how sometimes it just seems like everything is working out? yeah this is starting to feel like one of those times. i can only hope that it won't go wrong! or that things won't collide and just screw each other up! so yeah, i just hope things will stay this way. well like work out obviously. but the way things are going, they're pretty good! :) and i'm just gunna enjoy it as it is now!

we'll see how this week goes! :D

jack johnson makes me happy :)

lots of love :) :) :)

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHOqhcTpkIc

if I had a shotgun, you know just what i'd do, i'd point that shit straight at the sky and shoot heaven on down for you

FIRST PLACE! hahahaha i love my basketball team. we do the stupidest things, and our coach is ridiculously hilarious, but at the same time he knows his stuff, and knows when to be serious. it just makes our team great.

like in our first game today our coach gives us this pep talk and then he ends it with 'you better win fuckers'. like we just all started laughing so hard. and he's pretty young, and i guess maybe good looking? i mean i wouldn't say so.. not attracted to older guys (unless they're like demarcus cousins ;) ) so he starts like wheeling this girl in between games, like she was some girls sister or something, so funny. he like directed our team to go sit in the locker room while he could put his moves on. he ended up getting her number, and then we joked around with him about them having sex in the girls change room, it was kind of too far... but just so funny.

so yeah anyways.. got to hang out with kyle tonight, we shall see where this goes. but i'm in a little bit of a dilemma here, because the guy i've been 'pretending' to flirt with?..yeah i'm kind of actually starting to like him... yeah... and we've been texting a lot and just i don't know, something clicked!  i guess we'll see how this big mess figures itself out.

for now i'll just listen to my sublime and be happay :)

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sVxEWIRvY4

i'm a player baby, i should run for mayor maybe

so happy happy happy! :) i'm just having one of those weeks that's climbing from the bottom to the top! like it started out seemingly boring any uneventful. if anything a downer. and now it's just becoming great! :) it's actually quite amazing how the attention from certain boys can change a mood so easily... but i mean who doesn't want to feel wanted?! and i've had some other fun times to the past couple days.

and also gym is going to make my day tomorrow. so tory? yeah i talked to the guys on his basketball team and apparently he's already planned a date for us.. yeah creepy.. ? NO NO NO NO NO! so since i'm pretty decent friends with this guy on his team, jin, we're going to pretend we're getting together so that this football guy gets the message. secret bonus of this plan : i kind of wouldn't mind getting together with jin.. he's hot ahhaha. actually not.. but i think so, so it's okay. so anyways tomorrow in gym, since we're all in the same class me and jin are going to hcore flirt, and like be all over each other. fun fun fun fun! 

oh and why else is tomorrow going to be awesome other the gym? i get to miss C block to go skating! yeah that's right! sososooso stoked! oh and then instead of a soccer practice tomorrow night, our teams making sundaes for team bonding! :D yaaaaay! so good.

so yeah week's going uuuup! 

oh and shwayze is a babe. 

lots of love 

M 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=th0WbdpiuSY

and she's been high and she's been low, but now she finally on her own

people are so confusing! especially people who text you all the time.. then don't text you for like two weeks and then decided to start texting you again? i don't get it! or maybe i do.. i'm thinking this means you only want me when you need somebody to hook up with? no? yes? ahhhhhh!

so anyways today at school we had this thing where like 10 different canadian university's that are pretty close to home come and present. the hard part was, you only get to chose two to see present. i chose SFU and UVIC, well because SFU's awesome, and they have so much variety in their courses since they have multiple campuses. and i'm not totally sure why i went to UVIC.. but it seemed legit enough. so anyways it made me come to the conclusion that at grade 11, i really have absolutely no idea what i want to take in university, let alone what i want to be 'when i grow up'.
i've kind of somewhat narrowed it down to a few different majors i've considered. psychology, kinesiology, biology and journalism. i know these are all pretty different, so i guess you can probably tell i have no clue what in the world i want to do!

oh also today, since it's december 6th my school has this thing called the white ribbon campaign, for support on wrongful violence against women. so anyways, there's this thing where you buy a white rose for a women to show you care. so lame, right? or at least i think so. so anyways, this guy, tory, that's like this big football/basketball player that nobody is really too much of a fan of gave me a rose... awkwardest thing ever. and then to top if of brad texted me saying, 'so you and tory eh?;)' .. nononononono never. it was quite awkward.

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_fYw7u6VcY

screaming out there's not place like home, and then she spend another night alone

so warning, i may end up on a super long rant here, but i feel the need to get it out. so just giving you the heads up now. and the lyrics to this song pretty much sum up what i'm trying to say.

why is there that group of girls that all look the same that almost every single guy finds attractive. they all look the same. they have absolutely nothing unique about their look, yet dumb guys at my school are always making comments like 'they're so hot', and they get like 500 kajillion likes on every dumb little self-take facebook picture. they all dress the same, act the same, talk the same, DO YOU NOT REALIZE THEY'RE EXACT COPIES OF EACH OTHER?! they're completely fake. they're not going ANYWHERE with their lives.

i wouldn't mind these girls at all, if it wasn't the fact that they have no depth to them at all. trust me, i'm not just saying this and not really knowing them, i used to be friends with some of them, and i see how they interact with people at school and at parties all the time. they're straight up stupid. they have no idea about anything other then their own 'omg my boyfriend broke up with me my life is over', 'bbm not working:(' problems. nobody cares. oh wait just kidding, guys are stupid enough to think you're amazing, complex beings and they all want to date you, only for one reason of course though. sex.

it wouldn't bother me as much if these girls were dedicated to something other then boys, partying, looking 'good', and taking millions of pictures of themselves. if maybe, they put a little bit of effort into getting good grades (it's simple to get at least a B in every subject if you put a little effort in). or maybe they played sports? or were part of some sort of volunteering, maybe if they could play an instrument? something that gave them a little bit of difference and depth!

i honestly feel that if you're somebody who spends 6 days a week, almost every single week of the school year playing and practicing sports, if you get a day of here or there, you can go to whatever the fuck you want. i work my ass off studying to keep my 4.0 GPA plus i'm playing basketball 5 days a week and soccer 2 days a week. i feel like those occasional weekends i do get off, i can just have fun. those girls though, they get days off every day of the week. they have no discipline whatsoever, yet they still complain about their lives all the time. they 'can't find time to do homework' or 'forgot' to study for a test. yeah fucking right. you had all the time in the world, and you spent it on your lazy ass, or off having drunk sex somewhere.

please please please find a life. think for yourself for once. maybe not all the guys will want you, but you'll find the one that wants you for the right reasons.

lots of love

M

but before i make my move, my emotions started running wild

so 3rd place isn't bad. we only lost one game. and we had an amazing second game, like i don't know what came over my team but we blew them out by like 40 points! and the great thing is, although we're playing senior we only have two grade 12's on our team, the rest are 11's. so when we go up against these big grade 12 teams and beat them it's a pretty good feeling. we should have won that one game last night though... we'll get em next time.

so yeah, that's pretty much my weekend. basketball, basketball and more basketball. you could say it's back to the boring life? but really, i like it so much better. so once again, basketball's taken over my life and i really don't mind at all.

oh and while going through a house&home magazine last night i've decided i'm going to have to live on a beach. and my house has to have huge ass windows! it's the only way to go.

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hQDV4ATX9w
and if you cry out, i'm gunna push it some more.

no surrender no retreat, we take the battlefield over every time

53-14 BOOOOOOOOOOM!
my basketball team just rocked it today. and guess who got the first 6 points of the season for us, :) yay! so now i have another game at 8 tonight, and i'm hoping we'll be doing the same thing. I WANNA WIN THIS TOURNEY! ...defs at least make it to finals. STOKED STOKED STOKED STOKED.

lots of loooove

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mRrN4pmEuQA&feature=related