love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart

so today was pretty normal... y'know the whole go to school business, just your average wednesday. no biggie or anything there.

although i did find out there's going to be another pipers party friday.. at first i was thinking no way i'm going again, i need a weekends off! but not i'm like what the hell.. could be fun and all in all it's just good times. especially since my mom's making me take my final lifeguard training so i won't have free weekends for a couple weeks coming up :(


lots of love

M

i want this with somebody. to be able to just have fun, but have

that attraction aspect at the same time 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u57d4_b_YgI
jack johnson is like my hawaiian idol... i used to hate love songs, but i can't help to love jack's 

Day 10 – What you wore today

well considering i'm not in the same clothes now as i wore to school, i didn't really wear this all day. and i would NOT wear zebra stripped pajama bottoms to school. so don't be thinking that. instead i had a cardigan over my tube top, and i was wearing dark wash jeans and moccasin boots. it actually all worked out really well.

but now i'm just in my comfy, shirt i wore today/pj bottom style for home. oh and hair up y'know, cause that's a must when you're just lazing around with nobody to impress! 

lots of love 

M

sorry for the incredibly lg picture..

Day 09 – Your beliefs

well this might take a while if i actually put down every single belief i have. and some might not be totally agreed with. so i'll just give you my strongest belief.

do whatever makes you happy, as long as it's not causing harm to others. also if you can't be happy yourself, devote your time to making others around you happy, that way you can learn.

i just really believer happiness and being a good person are the most important things in life. if you can be happy yourself and make others around you happy as well, that's the ultimate package.

lots of love

M

make it real, or else forget about it

OKAY! so i've been pretty busy between school, sports and friends in the past couple days, and the times when i actually sat down ready to write in my blog, my internet's stopped working. so here we go, let's do this!

pipers. was. awesome. i guess i'm just one of those people that loves a good party once in a while. although who can't love a great party (40 + people were there), especially when it's one that's on the beach with a HUGE fire, no complaints and no cops!? like who can't resist that, come on!

i just kind of mingled a lot of the party, talked to a lot of people. just had fun y'know? usually J and T come with me to parties but they had a volleyball tournament so they couldn't make it. but there were still tons of people that i knew. and i met this guy form turkey doing an exchange at our school, so awesome! like he just fit right in with everyone, and he's got like this baller style going on. haha it's so good. and he's a champ at basketball too so it helps even more.

so new resolution though, don't drink as much. because although i remember most things, i should probably tone it down a little bit, y'know keep it a little less wild. i'm just so outgoing though, like especially when i'm drinking so it gets a little crazy. oh and defs hooked up with brad again. . i mean i couldn't resist.. and it was him that came onto me NOT me that came onto him. plus it wasn't for very long either so it's all good. but  i also did happen to kind of hook up with this guy i've also known for a really long time, he's just such a pimp when he's drunk! but i am NOT a slut. i know what you're thinking, two guys in one night. but i have only ever hooked up with 4 different guys. so really i figure it's not slutty if it's the same guy. AND NO MORE RANDOM HOOKUPS FOR ME! new resolution along with not drinking as much.


lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q9eAl4fp32c&feature=related
i've loved this song since i was really little, my parents always played it but i never actually knew the title of the song until a couple days ago

Day 08 – A moment

Christmas. 

you know when you look out the window, there's little snowflakes falling outside, everything seems so bright, yet so cold. and you're warm and cozy inside your house, maybe a fire going, candles burning. you're family is surrounding you, all your aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, mom, dad, siblings. all just sitting together around the living room, telling jokes and bringing back old memories from years passed. christmas carols playing in the background, so gentle and welcoming. the Christmas tree, lights twinkling and showing off the shiny ornaments. 

the turkey dinner, and how everyone sits around the table and passes endless plates of food to one another, laughing and smiling the whole time. stuffing yourself with too much dessert, because that last square looked too good to pass up, or you just couldn't wait another year to have some more of Oma's rice pudding. 

i love Christmas, everything is just so wonderful, and cozy and just so happy! i find that if i just take a moment  while all my family's around me and appreciate what i have i can really see what a lucky person i am. 

lots of love 

M 

Day 07 – Your best friend

JULIE! julie is my bestest friend in the whole entire, big huge world!

since grade 2 baby! or at least that's what we always say just joking around about how long we've been friends for. but she's just one of those people that knows everything about me. and when i say everything. i mean EVERYTHING!

even though i sometimes feel like we're drifting apart cause we're both super busy, something happens and i realize julie has always got my back. i couldn't ask for somebody better to be there for me! :) and we play on the same basketball and soccer teams together, and just work together on the court and the field so well!

julie is just one of those people i can actually, seriously see myself being friends forever with. everyone always says we fight like an old married couple, it's cause we do :) and we find it just so funny! julie is absolutely hilarious about everything too, probably one of the funniest, craziest girls i know. and she LOVES food, like seriously loves it. as long as she's got some food in her hand she's happy, but somehow she's the skinniest thing you will ever see.

lots of love

M

my bestest friend in the whole entire world :)

Day 06 – Your day Day

so i'm just gunna take this like it means my day today?

WELL today's a monday. mondays always leave you tired.. SO TIRED.

so my day started out, woke up y'know did the usual stuff, walked to school and such. got to school, talked with some people, went to my A block class which is Chemistry. sat beside eric.. talked about stuff. apparently at the pipers party i tried to make out with his friend, but i have people to back me up saying i pushed him off of me. so yeah got rid of that rumor or at least for him..

then B block i had PE. we had to do a milk run and it was so hot out.. i just about died but luckily it wasn't for marks so i didn't have to like sprint 4km or anything to get an A. just a nice light jog, it was all good. then we played soccer, uneventful. 

C block was Social Studies. i really like socials cause the teacher is so good. like he's so smart! and always brings up really good points, he knows his stuff. but yeah the guy i've known forever that i hooked up with at pipers is in that class so it felt a little awkward. then after when i went to talk to dustin (who's best friends with the guy i've known forever) after class i told him to be on the look out if the guy was coming. well the guy came, and dustin was like 'oh sorry, i was supposed to tell montana when you're coming so she could leave but i forgot'. awkward! but whatever we kinda talked there so it was all good. 

after D block, normally i have Biology, but instead i had to do this activity thing with the grade eights, like help them out for voulenteer hours. so yeah. and for some reason the guy i've known forever was there... so yeah didn't really get a chance to actually associate with him though so whatevs. 

OMG my basketball coach for this year wants the team to start running with the cross-country team to get in shape for the season. killer. i hurt everywhere now! and the sad thing is we only ran about 6km. but it was just way to hot out! 

and now i have piano tonight. so nothing too exciting in my day! 

lots of love 

M 

I wanna hold your hand, like an old school jam

okay so i know i've missed a few days here, but i was staying at my aunties house and i was pretty busy during my week. but i'm just gunna skip all that school stuff and go straight to my weekend.

so this weekend we went to this pretty good party spot. it's perfect, it's right on the ocean but in this super secluded spot, like no houses around, no cops. all good! and like you just hear the waves crashing, and have a big fire going with logs around it. so good. so anyways yeah.. i don't think i've ever drank that much before... oops. but like i was just having such a good time.

so this guy, who i've known since like grade 2 yeah so he basically told me he wanted to hook up with me? so then i ended up hooking up with him... but like with him i don't know if it meant something more because he was like 'yeah if this means more then a hook up to me i'll text you in the morning' guess who texted me in the morning... ya i don't really want anything more.. i don't think he does either.. just fun.

so yeah like i truthfully NEVER partied before like last year, like just since after this blog i started partying a lot so now there's all these like weird rumors going around and people talking behind my back, but i don't even care. it's no big deal, let them talk. i just want to have fun!

lots of love

M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6ETixGeGQs
i love shwayze. :) 

Day 05 – Your definition of love

i'm not sure i exactly have a definition of love, but i know the things i do love that bring up the emotion in me.

an empty beach in the sunshine, the sound of the waves crashing against the shore. sand squishy on my feet as the wind gently blows through my hair.

somebody who you just want to be with, no matter what you're doing. you just want to be in their presence, have them around, know that at that moment they're there with you and would rather be with you then anywhere else in the world with anyone. someone you can just sit with in silence, have them hold you and feel safe. 

being with your 'crazy' family or your very best friends in the entire world. people that know you even better then you know yourself. you could not be doing anything and still have a good time together. laughing so hard you pee, it hurts to smile and you're abs have had a major work out.

when your favorite song comes on and you know all the words. just listening to the music, feeling it go through you, playing it, swaying to the beat, dancing, maybe even singing along. whether it's in your car, in the shower, in a grocery store or at your own house, every time you hear that song, or band you get a little feeling of satisfaction.

a hot shower after a long, cold soccer game. or a rough day. complete relaxation just letting the water surround you and flow down your body. taking all of your thoughts with it. 

the feeling after winning a big game, the anticipation in the few final seconds when it's so close and you know all your hard work could slip away because of one slight error. the trust you have to have in your team mates, the motivation you have to have in yourself. the love for the game. when you win it all, the joy that comes over you. 

i guess i could say love, to me is complete happiness. total bliss.


lots of love 

M

Day 04 – What you ate today

well this is a little embarrassing because today wasn't exactly the most exciting day of eating for me....

so breakfast i had some sort of blueberry smoothie that my daddy made. SO GOOD. i have like a serious obsession with smoothies or something, but i just love them so much! especially booster juice. the best.

all that's really left in the picture is the glass... it was too good to wait

lunch is never very exciting because i eat at school, so i had some sort of bologna and cheese sandwich (my parents always have all this nice sandwichy accessory nice stuff but i like to keep it simple, usually i just have peanut butter), a fruit cup which was peach of course in fruit juice, a nutri-grain bar i think it was strawberry?, and i managed to mooch off a piece of a cookie from dustin and a half a banana chocolate chip mini muffin from this other guy.

peachesssssssss

so when i got home from school i needed a snack asap so first thing i see are brownies! so i had to have one.. okay two. but whatever i can handle it, i have the flattest stomach of stomachs possible apparently according to my sister and my friends. so after that i remembered my dad bought my favorite coconut yogurt.. so of course i had to have some of that. and i also managed to find some banana cream pie ice cream which i just had a little teensy tiny taste of. then after that i felt bad and decided to be healthy and eat an apple.

best yogurt in the world.

so then dinner. well dinner was like italian food, cause that's what we do whenever my parents don't have very much time (they had to head off to their meditation class). so it was some sort of marinara, lots of cheese, cheesy pasta sort of creation. with a baguette and salad and that sort of stuff, whatever it was good.

okay i admit it doesn't look the best, but after food has been attacked does it ever look good?

i definitely felt weird taking pictures of my food.. i mean it's not really something i do on a regular basis. 

lots of love 

M

live for the moment is my number one slogan

so past couple days have been pretty average. just going through classes y'know? this semester i have chem, pe, socials and bio so it isn't too hard or anything, just pretty chill. but i really really really don't want to be in school. just not really my thing. i blame it on the fluorescent lights mostly though.

so other then school the past couple days nothing really big has really been happening, just hanging out with friends and all that good stuff. no super hot new guys to look out for or anything.. but i am in a grade 11/12 mixed pe class so there's defs some dec grade 12 guys to look out for. nothing to great though.

so obviously i 'that guy' and i haven't seen each other in a week or so, i guess that's what boarding school does to yaaa. but i actually really don't mind, because i felt like when he left we were really good. like the night of the party, that was probably the best way we could have ended things. and now there's always next summer... wooo!

lots of love

M

so i'm defs not actually going to get a picture of 'that guy'.

but for a hook up, he's on my mind way more then he should be...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xE-HZ7uGXew
mac miller, can't go wrong. but i defs like the remix better then the original. 

Day 03 – Your parents

my parents are crazy :) i love them so much but in the end, that's what i have to say about them! they're like the big into health food/fitness type. the run all the time.. like 30km at a time. it's crazy! they always try to convince me to go running with them but no way, that's just not for me. 

they're also really big into like meditation (they get up at 5am every morning to meditate, we even have a room in our house they call the 'meditation room' that it's soul purpose is for you guessed it, meditating.), and like inner peace and all that sort of stuff. they're really interested in Buddhism, but i don't know if i'd exactly call them Buddhists. 

contrary to most home's these days my parents are still very very very much in love. they've been dating since they were 17 and they're 51 now so i guess you could say they've been putting up with each other for a while.  but they seem to make it work, so whatever they have, i want in my love life. 

even if they are a little overprotective of me, they look our for my best interests.. even if i don't see them as being my best interests at the moment. they're always there for me supporting me at sporting events (they coached me when i was younger), coming to any school activities that require them. they do so much for me and i love them with all my heart :) 

i got the best mommy and daddy in the whole entire world :) 

lots of love 

especially to my momma and daddy :) 

M

Day 02 – Your first love

my first love. well i can't really say that my first love is a person, seeing as i'm still in high school and definitely haven't been in love yet. (i just don't believe that people in high school can really be 'in love') so i guess my first love is something else. THE SUN :)

i could spend hours in the sun. all day, errr day. it's just something i need to live! i really just think sunshine and beaches are the greatest things ever. get your tan on, relax and lay back. everything looks prettier when it's sunny, it's a known fact. and the heat it brings, it's great! i really don't understand what's not to love about it.

Kaanapali Beach on Maui, took this picture the first night i was there. probably my favorite beach in the world.

lots of love 

M

kick it with my friends, hit the beach and treat it like a weekend

FIRST DAY OF NOT BEING GROUNDED! WOOO! :)

so i pretty much HAD to get out of the house today, so i woke up and headed to the lake with julie and dustin :) we met three other guys there, one of which has a jet ski! so much fun. it's great to have rich friends sometimes. so first we just like tanned and such on the beach, but then we decided to go tubing with the jet ski. i totally fell off.. but it was fun. and then J and i teamed up together and pushed dustin off. woo! then after J and i just went by ourselves for a ride on the jet ski with the guy who owns it, it was great. so jealous he has it! and in the end i got super tan, with just a tad of a sunburn... oh well!

so seeing as it's a sunday i can't really do much tonight because i have to be in decent shape for school bright and early monday morning... so i'll probably just go to timmies with julie and shannon (since jessie is with eric obviously... woooow so not supporting the celebration of my first day of being un-grounded) 

so anyways, just a fun day today :) 

lots of love 

M

so. much. FUN! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oca8fsH38X4

oh how i love shwazye :) 

Day 01 – Introduce yourself with pictures and words

so i'm M :) and i love being happy, i mean who wouldn't want happiness? i really try to be an optimist and see the bright side of life, i really do! but i'm still learning every day on how to make that work for me... 

i love sunshine, summer and beaches! California, Hawaii and British Columbia (where i live now) are probably my favorite spots for beaches and sunshine :) i also love to travel, although i haven't really gotten a chance to go to too many places yet, i'm still young! i have the rest of my life! but i'm totally a summer person so bring on the sun, sand and surf! oh and i really, really, really like sun bathing which does wonders for a tan!

music is actually a really huge part of my life. my whole family has always been really into music. i guess you could say i have one of those musical families? always dancing and singing and playing instruments together. the main thing i play is piano, but i also can play flute, trumpet, alto saxophone and ukulele. i just play classical piano now, but up until this year i played trumpet in a jazz program at my school. (jazz is huge at my school, there's even a jazz academy which is what i did). but my real favorite genre is reggae or ska. i LOVE LOVE LOVE sublime! but also the dirty heads are great. and i'm just staring to love radical something. 

basketball has also became a really huge part of my life since both my parents played. they actually met on a high school basketball road trip. so guess what, i play basketball! even though it's not something i see myself having a future in, i do really enjoy it. like watching it and playing it and everything. i'm a HUGE Lakers fan and believe it or not, i actually met Kobe Bryant in Portland back in april when i went to a game! one of the best moments ever :) 

lots of love 

M

ps. for the 30 i'm trying to use pictures i either took myself, or pictures of me. but obviously for some things i couldn't do that, like sublime (as much as i'd like to say i've seen them) 

trying to escape, leave the shit find the sunshine baby

so friday night being i was still grounded i went out for dinner with my parents to the modern... probably not the most exciting thing ever so i won't go into detail or anything. but from like 10 - 1am julie, taelar and dustin came and visited me :) we had to be quite so we just kinda caught up and stuff... but still something to do!

so today i went to this island which is about a 20 minute boat ride from where the island i live on is. it's so gorgeous! white sandy beaches and tons of sea stone. the houses are gorgeous too. luckily the weather here is still really nice (like 30 today probably?) so i just beached it with my parents.. it was just a pretty chill day overall. 

UN-GROUNDED TOMORROW! 

lots of love 

M

on Gabriola :) sometimes i think it could almost be as nice as

california... only almost though 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPNa9YddRqs

radical something is like my favorite :) 

so if you have something to say to somebody, then do it now

first day of school today. only good thing is it's a break from my grounding where i can see all of my friends.

so i really have nothing to say... i mean being grounded doesn't really leave me to do much. it's kind of just like home, school, home. nothing too exciting. and since the first day nothing really happens at school anyways. i saw dustin though! i missed him so much! :) seriously we're like best best best best friends. it's so much easier to be close friends with a guy then a girl. just no drama at ALL! so good.

can there PLEASE be a new hot guy in at least ONE of my classes!? (who ends up having a thing for me ;) ) would be helpful...

lots of loooooove

M

california, baby i'm coming home! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6WOf88UkEIM
saddest song i gottta say

i got my cup filled up, we came to have a good time so turn my music high

okaaay so my party was quite amusing. well for me at least. words can not describe. but yeah totally worth my parents finding out.

so the only reason my parents did find out is because somebody took some of their booze and they found it like misplaced in my house.. but like i'm just grounded for a week but it doesn't even matter since school starts tomorrow so it's all good :)

but like omg party was so entertaining haha. like i just had so much fun. like good people there.. and just having a chill time? and yes i did get a little tipsy.. okay maybe more then a little but i knew what i was doing and was totally aware of everything so it was all good. i just had so much fun!

so something you might not know about me. i'm a good girl. or at least was a good girl? well still am at heart i just do some so called 'bad' things now. before these last two weeks of summer i've never drank, had a party,  or even done more then kissed a guy. but now, now i've become a little more... let's say wild? and i love it. i really don't feel like a nobody anymore. these last two weeks of summer have transformed me. and i love it :) never want to go back to my old, boring life.

lots of love

M :)

so flipping cute.... holy jesus christ! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-I5Vc6wpvpk

it's time to release your mind and believe that inside you are free

so since my parents have ever so kindly left me the house again... party tonight! wooo!

apparently (i've heard through some sources) i'm having a huge party tonight? oh technology, how you make things happen that never even existed. but i guess i will live up to this. i just don't want a massive party.. like i might have to come off as a bitch and not let some people into my house.. but truth is if i never talk to you in school or hang out with you, why should you be at my party? ohh well i guess i'll see how this goes down.

this is all so strange to me though, like at the beginning of this summer i was just another innocent girl. i didn't party, hang out with that scene and i had gotten over 'that guy'. i think i'd blame it on 'that guy' for dragging me into the party scene, because as bad as it sounds it was the only way i could get his attention. (yeah does that tell you what kind of guy he is. huge mistake right? but he's so cute!). at least the partying thing is doing wonders for my social life. i'm having more fun, and making more out of my high school life then ever. but at the same time there's certain people in that crowd i just don't want to be friends with or even be associate with.

what i'm really in need of is a balance.

lots of love

M


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtkdfYmkHYI
i think i'm in love with the Dirty Heads

i need some fun vibes and a couple drops of sunshine

why don't i live in California? i've decided that i need to move there asap. like i just love sun. seriously, rainy weather puts me in the worst mood ever. WORST. like if it's a rainy day, watch out because i'll be angry. i'm sure it doesn't help i live in the only rain forest in north america...  i've decided that i am going to university in California. i might not know where yet, or how i'm going to pay for it but i'm going. and i'll love the extra little sunshine and warmer weather, the ocean, the lifestyle, everything.

CALIFORNIA HERE I COME!

lots of love

M

so this picture right here. this is where i live. i look  outside and 

all i see is rain rain rain rain RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN. not fun.

where i should be living. this is just so much more me style. 

i could never get tired of the sunshine. it's my first love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53hindKbUyI

i have a few favorite lines in this song including the title:

california got me thinking i should really take it easy

no thunder and lightning just a view of the ocean

cause we don't just own the sun, us california kids got a monopoly 

i was always taught that boy meets girl, fall in love get married and forget the world

okay so crazy night last night! i mished with julie and nicole and we meet up with a lot of different people during the night... and drank a little too much...

we went to so many places, like walked a ton. i think my favorite was going up to this mountain and like sitting there and watching the stars. it was just so chill.

yeah so it was just a really good night :) and my parents are leaving me home alone again this weekend... you know what that means!

lots of love

M

ps. i totally saw 'that guy' last night and realized, i'm like way better then him. like seriously not trying to be cocky or anything but i'm actually too good for him.. like seriously he practically raped a girl. that's so not worth my time. looks like i need to find one of the other guys...

i seriously love stargazing. i think it's one of the most relaxing

things to do. plus it really just gives me a chance to think about

everything.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UZue9XUe_aE
the lyrics have a point...