so instead i went to school and pounded through my classes, which surprisingly was alright. i'm ahead of the rest of my class in both bio and socials now since i just worked through class. like i said before, just one of those days where you want to say fuck it and not talk to anybody. really good for focus i'd say.
this might sound stupid, but i was feeling kind of musical today after school, so before i had to head off to basketball practice i went through some of my exam pieces for piano. sometimes it's nice to be able to just sit down and play. it's a good feeling.
then best part of the day, i had a super good basketball practice. it might not have been the best practice ever as a team, but it certainly was good. and it was an amazing practice individually for me. i just did everything really well, and when we had to do lines or stairs i always came first :) yay payoff from endless hours swimming. maybe i was just in a working hard mood today? but whatever it was it paid off.
really thinking about it now, i probably had one of those fuck it days because i just really need to take a break and think about some stuff. like last night a feeling of fear came back that i haven't had in a while. when i was younger i used to be terrified of death, but i guess now since i never really got a chance to get over S's dad's death that feelings come back. also i'm always wondering about 'that guy'. i shouldn't be thinking about stupid stuff that much. blah.
this is the kind of thing i've felt like doing all day.. i just need some time to
relax and think about things
lots of lovin
M
this song makes me so happy. i just like the mood it puts me in.
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